Creating Family Wellness – Our Path to Closer to Fine

I feel like I’m living some variation of the old “Closer to Fine” Indigo Girls lyrics. I loved this song when I was an undergrad; it was the perfect lyrical representation of my state of mind in college.  Now, twenty years later, I’m living a very different life as a mother of two small children, and oddly enough — I’m still looking for answers.  The questions have just changed a bit as I’ve gotten older. My current quest is getting my family well — especially my youngest daughter who has been mostly unwell since she was born. I feel like we’ve tried everything, and yet I know there’s more to discover on the spiritual realm that could help her.  My current “Closer to Fine” lyrics as they relate to my baby Izaroo:

We went to the naturopath; we got cranio-sacral therapy; we looked to the psychic; we tried aromatherapy. There’s more than one answer to our questions, pointing us in a crooked line.

Honestly, I’ve hit a wall with all that we have tried and I now realize it’s time for me to dig into the energetic, subconscious lack-of-ease within me that may be contributing to my highly sensitive baby’s chronic physical manifestation of dis-ease.

“A bodily disease, which we look upon as whole and entire within itself, may, after all, be but a symptom of some ailment in the spiritual part.”  ~Nathaniel Hawthorne, The Scarlet Letter

For the sake of my health and the health of my family, I’m going to attempt to keep my post short tonight so I can rest. We’ll see how that goes. I say that every night I’ve committed to write and generally stay up way too late out of sheer determination to finish.

Izzy is particularly sensitive and I’ve known this since before she was born. I just didn’t know exactly how it would manifest, and I didn’t predict (who can?) that she would be sick more often than not for the first 15 months of her life. I also didn’t realize until now just how critical my own well-being — which I realize is way beyond the physical — is for hers.

I generally trace the challenges and potential “trauma” of her life that may have contributed to her ongoing physical challenges to my pregnancy. While pregnant with her I experienced some intense grief with two deaths. The first was a child of someone I grew up with who died in an accident and the second was my dog Hazel, who was a sweet companion to me for many years prior to meeting my husband.  Also, when I was seven months pregnant, I fell down our stairs while carrying our then 2 year-old and was pretty freaked out by the whole experience.

Then, came her intense entry into the world. A home VBAC where she went into distress after transition and my midwives calmly told me I had to get my baby out within the next 5 minutes or we would have to transport to the hospital immediately. Her entry into the world:  me screaming through the final pushes and an episiotomy;   immediate skin-to-skin time together and nursing (thank God for that sweetness) and then the midwives determining she needed a tube down her throat to clear the passage and help her breathe.

She had difficulty breathing most of her first few months which led me to sleep holding her to my chest while sitting in a chair so that she could be upright.  She also had basic reflux symptoms though I never wanted to call it that at the time.  I took her to a naturopath to get tested for food sensitivities and completely altered my diet for 3 months to try and help her. No dairy, no nuts, no eggs, no soy, no wheat, no citris……but I held onto a few simple pleasures and wish that I hadn’t as it might have helped her more:  the occasional glass of wine and chocolate. I knew better.

Two cranio-sacral therapy sessions altered her life and she experienced her healthiest little chapter from about 3 or 4 months to 8 months, though she still didn’t sleep worth a damn.  buy cialis doctor online garde,century gothic,comic sans ms,times,times new roman,serif;”>The chronic colds began after that. She had a month reprieve after some intense aromatherapy sessions, but ultimately she’s been sick more often than not since then and she’s almost 16 months now.

I think her nose has been congested or runny most days since Thanksgiving.  I’m not kidding. The past week or so, her nose hasn’t stopped running; she’s had difficulty breathing at night; she’s coughing quite a bit and is ultimately pretty miserable.  We’re currently embarking on a 2 fold wellness plan.  One, dosing her up with homeopathic remedies as prescribed by our Naturopath and staying clear of Baby Tylenol which we learned was suppressing her immune system; and Two, me taking responsibility for her health by digging into my state of wellness beyond the obvious.

The obvious:  get more sleep, exercise more consistently.

The not so obvious:  to be discovered after I finish reading “Zero Limits” by Joe Vitali.

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4 Responses to “Creating Family Wellness – Our Path to Closer to Fine”

  1. bridget lewin says:

    >>>sending you soo much love and strength!!! I love you and your family dearly and wish that I could be present more, but I struggle with that in my own family…our babies are definitely our little zen masters and they are constantly teaching us to feel, see and BE more deeply in touch with ourselves and the world around us..I often feel that I will have it all figured out and become centered and balanced with all these emotions and feelings once my little boys are all grown up and moving out to go to school or something…augh so sweet, so sacred and so challenging! Please do not loose sight of what an amazing and inspiring goddess mama you are, and feel the support and love I am sending!!!!!!!!!

  2. Sarah says:

    I am curious if you have heard of “Eat to Live” or “Eat for Health” by Dr. Joel Fuhrman? I have started this diet for myself to help with my family’s health issues. I fully believe everyone has to choose what works for them, but I thought I’d throw it out there. Might be worth a read; from what I hear, Dr. Fuhrman will answer individual questions on his message boards.
    Good luck,
    Sarah B.

    • Hi Sarah –
      I have heard of Dr. Fuhrman, though I haven’t read his books. My husband and I are huge advocates of healthy eating as the prescription for both short and long-term health. We are close friends with Rip Esselstyn, author of The Engine 2 Diet. (Have you heard of him or his book?) Really great story. Rip has now retired from his fire station (Engine 2 in Austin) where he convinced all his fireman buddies to convert to eating vegan and has now written this great book, gotten famous and has recently been hired at Whole Foods to be the voice of their healthy eating campaign. We have also been inspired by Dr. McDougal’s books and the China Study which offered an eye-opening confirmation of the benefits of eating vegan. We eat vegan 90% of the time, still eating eggs, fish and ghee on occasion. And when we can, we take it a step farther and eat macro-biotic by frequenting Casa de Luz in Austin.

      Nutrition is a powerful, critical step to health — for sure. I think our family has struggled with health the last several months from stress and lack of sleep. Though easier said than done sometimes. 🙂

      Thank you so much for your comment and for reading my blog. I will definitely check out Dr. Fuhrman’s material too.

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